Yesterday was supposed to meet Edwin. But last minute he said he need to go badminton with his friends le so no choice had to go lo. Pity that he missed how I dressed yesterday. X) that’s for me to know and for you to find out ;]
Today I almost cried 3 times. I get to meet him today and went home with him too. Duno what else to say la. Hahax. Last time when we used to date he is the one doing most of the talking also. So it’s the same for today. I really speechless in what am I going to tell him or talk to him about it. So im quite only replying rather than do the talking. Just because I will keep thinking back of how we used to be. Since it’s the first time we as friends hanging out tgt. Thinking the way how we used to hold hands, hug, talk with smiles, etc. makes my heart really aches with pain and sadness. The 3 times I almost cried will be one in burger king (tears almost dropped), 2nd is at my house that time when I was using my pillow to cover my face, 3rd will be when he was wearing his shoes and about to leave that time ba. Then after shutting the door I cried le lo. Then suddenly think. A?! he know how to walk to the bus stop meh? Need me to send him there ma? Then I rush to call him lo. Worry ma. Bo bian. Then I just picked my hp to call him lo. Then I walk to the window ma, cus I worry where is him now n stuffs. Then I saw someone cutting across the field xD yuan lai shi ta. Then I tell him “u cutting across the field ah!? *surprised*” then he say yea? Cus it’s the shortest route. xD mus walk hypotenuse instead of adjacent and opposite. xD then like that lo. I gave him a ring using my hse phone after that. ;]
I missed him a lot.
But what can I do or say.
When he was just right by my side,
I feel like just hugging him in some way.
But I knew I cant do it and he wont let me do so,
I just hide my sorrows away.
Do you know what he did when he came my hse? xD
Don’t think y y
He inspected
He drank
He played
He lie on my bed
He use bolster to ‘pat pat’ me
He concerned but I cant bear to tell him how I feel cus that will make me cry on the spot.
He wore his socks n shoes
He left…
It all started from 8 plus to 10 :] why cant time just last longer? And let my agony to be cut short?
