he still loves her for what i can tell.
why am i still so persistant when he said 'i dont love you'
did he did that on purpose?
or he really meant it?
i dont really like contradictions.
he is confusing me
tormenting my everyday.
he promised her things?
or me?
i dont really remember anymore.
memories are fading way too quickly.
too quickly that i cant catch,
cant hold anymore.
been searching.
but no where to be found.
i am lost.
very lost without him.
no other than edwin.
it might be my fault.
when i was sick,
he wanted to come and see me,
but i rejected him.
when i am ill and feel like vomitting in the bus,
he let me lie on his lap to make me feel better.
when i was angry,
or just want him to pamper me more,
he gave in to me.
but what has changed?
since he had his new haircut.
everything seemed so different to me.
like he has changed.
to someone i never knew,
never loved.
he became ambitious.
he ditched me.
and he moved on without me.
when the time you said i love you to me.
i was really touched to tears.
but now no matter how much i love you i said,
will it even matters to you?